My name is Agata Rybak

This is where I really trust myself. And I love being the person I am. I no longer struggle to be anything more. I have such a sense of self that I know I'm given everything I need. What guides me is love.

I was once different. I only knew that one day I could truly love and be loved. But everything around me didn't reflect that. I felt inferior to others, somehow deficient. What I did was blame myself for what wasn't working between me and others. And I took on a lot of negative energy because of it. I was unloved by myself for a long time. What I longed for was to be able to love someone and be close to him.

And I spent many years in a relationship with someone who couldn't love either himself or me. Even though we had many good experiences that taught me a lot about myself, at some point this human stopped treating me as someone worth loving. And that relationship ended very brutally for me, because he threw me out of the house as someone who was no longer loved by him and giving nothing in return, for the fact that he already had a better income than when we met as two kids who had nothing. It was incredibly upsetting to see other girls treated better than me, receiving more tenderness and attention. One of the greatest skills I've gained from this relationship is the ability to listen, because this guy talked a lot about himself, completely ignoring my need to talk about myself. However, I was convinced that this was love between us and that if I changed, he would change too. He did change, but not in the way someone who wants to be loved would want.

It taught me a lot about how not to let myself be taken advantage of. And now I know I'll never let myself be hurt. And I know that true love is different than what I experienced there.

I know I was naive once. And I trusted people I shouldn't have trusted. I didn't want to see them do something unkind to me. I had high hopes that people were better when I saw them that way. I gave too much to those who couldn't even see that they received it from me. I wanted nothing more than for everyone to feel loved and accepted. I gave something I had always lacked.

It was different for me then, because I believed that this was love. It was a necessary lesson for me, because I know, thanks to this, that people thrive in love. And I no longer want to make the mistakes I made then, which allowed others to believe I was less than them. Now I know that someone who loves doesn't do that.

This is precisely what I share with those who desire to love. Love is different for those who know that you can't love if you allow yourself to hate at other times. It is then a lie and an illusion. The illusion that love must bring pain and suffering. Suffering is no longer necessary, because you no longer want to love suffering when you know you don't have to. And that's where maturity begins. It's about being your own true protector. And you'll never let anyone take your freedom away.

I am someone who loves love and actively thinks about how to restore the memory of its real power among people who are ready for it.

I am open to truly connecting with others in an open heart and creating with them in the heart space.

I love my life and am grateful for the gift of it. I am in love with being able to love and being loved.